Death Counterpart!!

Am living in a strange reality
everything in shades of grey
life is not wat i planned to live
the whole meaning is going down in vain

thought of giving u a visit dear lord
asking u wat rong have i done this time
cant the sins be forgiven
n my life be spun around

this pain inside me is so unbearable at times
this dual life i live in cant see the lite
have i done something so hateful
that this life has to be like that